Am I being true to myself?
This is a question I am constantly asking myself, and I know it’s what other artists ask themselves too. Sometimes it can feel like an ongoing and never ending struggle to be true to yourself because this industry moves so fast. In order to keep up you find yourself doing things you would never even have dreamed of doing before. Since I was little Michael Jackson has been my hero-someone who in the latter part of his career and life hardly ever gave interviews. This meant that anytime he did speak, or do anything, it was a huge worldwide event. This wasn’t always the case of course, in the early days of the Jackson 5, Michael and his brothers did all the interviews, television shows and performances that you would imagine a new and young exciting act would do in order to get the necessary attention. Nowadays, the word ‘overexposed’ doesn't exist as we are constantly bombarded with information by our favorite artists left, right and center. And we love it! Well I know I do, because if I didn’t want to know what my favorite artists were doing every second I could just click out of that browser. I don’t have to look at it. I’m a willing participant, creating content and also consuming content. Through my solo journey, I am constantly checking myself to ensure that I don’t get lost in it all, that everything you see is me.
So in answer to that question today-yes I am being true to myself. There is so much ‘noise’ out there. So many opinions on what I should be doing, wearing,singing, saying, posting, writing, covering…and I have learned to just hit the mute button. When it comes to my creativity, I am happiest when I do exactly what I want to do. It is the one part of my life where there is no room for negotiation or compromise. Because my happiness has to come first when I’m doing what I love. If I stop loving what I do, it’s all over. Right now I am the happiest I’ve ever been because I’m able to keep ticking that box whenever I ask myself the question ‘Am I being true to myself?’. Of course there are always hurdles and things I want to conquer and achieve, but doing it my way is really the best feeling.
This post was sort of like a stream of consciousness after seeing Amanda Palmer’s story, so forgive me if I was too vague or didn’t explain myself very well! Feel free to shoot some questions at me or tell me your thoughts on this. This isn’t just relevant to artists of course, many people in all different fields struggle with this question. Let me know your thoughts in the comments… Flying kisses!! Anita xxx